things i leave myself to remember in my cellphone notepad

      i want to get a few friends together next year..in college,and weekly we each buy a bag of chips,pretzels,crackers etc..then little ziploc sandwich bags..and we can make our own munchiess. :)

mr. pallas says that the department of homeland secruity has a building on route 7 and i could go apply there for a summer job,working for the federal government. lol . and i think it would be interesting to order one of those tax books..and see where all our taxes go..i feel like that'd be interesting to know. I would like to know what I'm paying for.

I want to start leaving a trail of post its everywhere i go..with inspirational quotes...reminders..and things that will make people smile. a sort of productive littering of post it notes

i think it would be cute to braid my hair very tiny in one spot kinda by my face and put a bead on the end to hold it.

during a late night stroll through price chopper with rob..while he was examining the steaks ..ofcourse..i started looking at the cooler..and i started to wish i could draw and expres creativity artistically. i would've drawn little pigs in the cooler..because thats what i was thinking..

i want to start being more cautious about how i text message..because apparently it can cause carpal tunnel ..yuck

learn this..sometime..to impress others

we watched it in public speaking class..i liked the soundtrack. it was a good combination of songs.

 i never really appreciate things fully until they aren't there.. i think sometimes its good to purposely go without things just so you can embrace everything much eaiser when you do have it all going for you.. sometimes i allow myself to forget my lunch on purpose or bring the wrong shoes..for this reason..well sort of...

i realized my view in physics class is very funny because im all the way in the back and my desk is lined up so perfect and the heights of everyone are just so that there is a straight line of heads blocking mrs. nolett. so not once during the period do i barely ahve to look at her..or even make eye contact...it just makes it more comfortable in a class where you do nothing.

i wish i was going to school for film sometimes. i always brainstorm cool like film sequences in my head. i think it would be cool to have the one with the car door shutting ..the keys jingle..the car motor starts..the psp..being plugged in ..where it goes directly over from psp to radio..in a 1/4 second pause between the song. just a perfect combination of noises and with the right shot..would just be sick in a movie.

chocolate chip cookies are the worst when you go to heat them up and they get microwave burn.yuck.

i forget this too often/.:[

I wish i could travel by balloons and send my messages through bottles.

cutting corners

I always find myself looking for ways to make things in life eaiser. I have discovered that cutting corners or beating "the system" ..(however clever-minded and brilliant it makes me feel at the time ) actually ends up making everything way more complex and annoying to deal with. For example..I basically think I'm the shit because i know how to get away with coming to school as late as i want..with no seemingly no concrete consequences..such as prep detention. should i simply not get detention while others do..just because i figured out how not to? i dont think so,because although not getting detention is sick...i'm lying,cheating,and forgeing my way into getting there. all you must do is write a sick note..even better..ive perfected my mother's signature. I'm such an asshole i even use the school's computer ink and paper to construct these notes. This is just one example of how i find myself cheating,and lieing my way through life...just because the system suckss ass..doesn't mean finding ways above it is right...not only is it technically wrong..but i fuck myself over in the long run. I don't do as well in my classes as a result. I press stop on the microwave when the timers not done..i cheat myself out of like 15 pieces of popcorn. Tasks shouldn't just be done to do them..they should be done for the reason they're being done for in the first place. I strive for the wrong thing like many others-for instant gratification despite future consequences. i give you another scenario...at courtneys if i don't do even the simplest thing such as putting the sierra mist all the way in the back to ensure the correct succession of dates..it makes a difference..everything really does matter..even it seems so small and insignifigant. I really want to embrace everything even if it sucks..instead of wasting time comtemplating ways of "getting out" im going to opt to do whatever it is and do it well..because i will find the leftover of what was not done..affecting me later.cutting corners doesn't do shit except multipy those corners by 4 and placing them elsewhere in the room. shortcuts don't exist unless they're ones you walk home..because shortcuts are for the fat and impatient..two things i'm becoming that i don't desire to be.

graduating highschool

I am graduating highschool. In 35 school days. Whenever I get down to thinking about it all,it makes me very overwhelmed. My first thought is "HELL yeahhh." I have a lot of mixed emotions,I'm not sad that I can't continue attending shaker high school for the rest of my life. I'm just a little scared to move onto the next part of my life. Things that are comfortable and defined for me,will no longer exist. What has happened the past 4 years ,has been my "highschool" experience. like what you see in the movies. I now have a person that I would distinguish as every stereotype. We all are going seperate ways. It is a time for great change. Change is the essence of life,but if this is true then why do I find myself trying to find comfort in familarity,why do I feel as if I need to not necessarily stop this change,but put it on pause. I can't remember things from 9th grade,that's weird for me to say but I can't remember a lot of it. Those really fun moments that I promised myself I'd never forget have shattered in hindsight.(..like that quote i recently posted) I will attempt to recall some of my fondest highschool moments now. ..or not even fondest just..most dynamic..or pivotial. im doing this in attempts of summarizing the last 4 years of my life. sure there are tons of things that didn't go the way i planned,and just parts that sucked,but I'm at a good place now,and that stuff although interesting to examine,is almost meaningless. I'm not the same person as i was 3 years ago. or 3 months ago. or 3 weeks ago. I'm constantly learning and my past won't define my future..just hopefully aid in making conclusions and learning lessons. I feel as if each year is more productive then the last and that i got smarter with each one.

1. the making of our russian class video. I did that In my 3rd year of highschool.

2. pretending to be the wizard of oz witch underneath the gym curtain with striped red socks.

3. my hello kitty planner of 9th grade,with a new hello kitty with a different design for each week

4. making flannel pants in clothing and textiles with katelin

5. when my ipod broke by freak accident

6. class with mr.kerins both years...climbing through his window..going to the bathroom every other day..eating in class...getting a really nice letter of reccomendation

7. watching pat cream-cheese that girls locker every midmorning..until mr.verdile decided that was unfavorable

8. walks around "the path"

9. mr. jacksons global class-having political debates. I learned so much that year about having an opinon and sticking up for my beliefs,no matter who you're dealing with,all while being respectful and getting a good grade

10. wuddles rox-cat stickers in mr.mions 7th period class...the history sucks cooke cake..that was so delicous

11. swimming in the pool at the end of 11th grade when it was very hot

12. trashcan jumping around final times

13. putting stickers and decorations on every locker I've had,to never confuse my locker with someone elses

14. the spot in the morning 9th grade

15. buying cookies way too much in 9th grade

16. nyc business club field trip every year,the year it rained,the year i lost my show ticket,the year we had a dance party,the museum of finance

17. walden pond

18. mrs.dils film criticism  being one of three 11th graders

19. mr. pallas psychology,war and conflict,economics,pig..mr.pallas in general..his outfits,his demeanour

20. field hockey freshmen year

21. getting a 99 in summer health

22. being a complete immature asshole everyday of 9th grade study hall with mrs.morgan-my soon to be math teacher...message in a bottle with leftover lemonade bottles-a brillant way to send messages

23.mrs.harleys class-her interpretative dance,bright classroom,love of fried chicken,and her thinking that she was my unmaternal mother

24.eating half of katelins CHOCOLATE bday cake

25.my complete trip to South Africa..before and After

26. going out with john the colonie town park,going to see bolt 3d,mexico

27.bingo at our lady of hope 9th grade

28. latin 1r. her playing "schools out for the summer" on the last day

29.mock trial

30.myspace

31.the first time i went to a "chu" party

32. the summer list of last year probably could be added to this

33.the first time I used liquid eyeliner

34. working at on the farm and everything about it

35. courtney's bar and resturant

36.becoming closer to my brother

37.the poetry out loud competition of 11th grade...my parents leaving for the weekend

38.eating pasta for the first time,and deciding i really loved it

39.going to the crossings this past weekend and sitting in the sun listening to music all afternoon with friends

40.the campout and fence sitting last year

41.going to albany to visit colleges..taking the day off to do so ofcourse

42.origami phase

43.friendship bracelet making in every class

44. S.A.T. Class

45. drivers ed with martin...falling asleep on my car-mates

46.skye farm camp

47. photocopying body parts using the churchs copier and hiding them places

48. march nej meeting

49.......

this list is going to take forever and ever i will defintely add to it as the opprotunity comes